I wanted to update you on the German-move, which is why I'm popping in today.
Last night, my husband got on a plane without me and Kayla. While his visa is obviously ready and currently in use, mine and Kay's isn't. We have no indication of how long it will be, because the allotted time-span they initially gave us has now been lengthened greatly.
I can't explain to you what I'm thinking at the moment, so I won't try. Just know that it's difficult. I know that many couples are separated for long periods of time and make it work, just as Jan and I are making it work now. That doesn't make it easier though. I have to be strong for Kayla's behalf, because she doesn't understand anything other than her daddy is gone.
This is the first time in our marriage that we're separated and we have no idea for how long. Before this, we haven't spent longer than a day apart without seeing each other (in the seven years we've been married) and we've been separated for 5 nights in total. That includes my stay in the hospital when Kayla was born. I don't want to whine, I'm just really sad about this distance thing.
I'm also sad that something that was supposed to be a great adventure and a new beginning has turned into an I-don't-know-when-I'll-see-you-again-situation. Initially, we were assured that my visa would probably take four weeks at most. Now that has changed to three months. At the moment, I'm scheduled to fly out on the 24th, but we'll see if that happens or not.
Has my faith been shaken? No. Not at all. Does that fact make it easier to be away from my soulmate? No. Not at all. We're that couple that does everything together. We barely ever change Kayla's nappies alone when we're together, for goodness sake. So it makes being apart difficult to say the least. I do love him, after all.
But as I said, we're making it work.
I'll keep you updated on what happens.